Perfect Timing

Have you ever been at a place in your life where you know that at that very moment, you are exactly where you are supposed to be? You feel this overwhelming sense of peace and accomplishment. Everything is right about where you are, what you have, and who you are with. You feel like your search is complete and your heart is finally fulfilled. I've been at this place a few times in my life, but there is one moment that seems to really stand out where something changed from being so perfect to being such a disaster. I kept asking myself if I created this disillusion of euphoria or if there was something deeper that I couldn't see past. Sometimes we just "know" when a situation or circumstance is right, I truly believe that. But when it changes or slips away from us, we question our sanity. We question if we were genuinely feeling our place in the world or if we were falsely creating it. Have you ever met someone or been in a situation where you can see that things would have really worked out if it was the right "time"? In a sense, I think we have more control over that concept of the right "time" than most of us allow ourselves to believe. For me, I was once at a place in my life where I had really worked on myself (whatever that can really mean) and reached out to the world to achieve what I "knew" was going to be that ultimate reward we all search for in this life. I was in a place that I knew I was meant to be. My hard work in overcoming a multitude of life issues and self doubt was finally starting to resolve and I was where I knew I wanted to be. I felt as though I took all the textbook steps to get there and that this was my destiny. I felt that the universe was on my side. I did the work, I get the reward. It sounds simple and ideal right? Well that's what I thought until it was completely ripped away from me. I had taken all the right steps to get to where I wanted to be and now it's nothing shy of a disaster.I'm not being over dramatic here either. I really went from a place of well earned contentment and happiness to a real life crisis episode. I walked around thinking, "what did I do to deserve this?" I was in a desperate state of self pity, which was extremely unattractive. I was so confused and I went through a phase of self doubt again because I knew I did everything carefully and with a purpose. The funny this is, I got through it, I moved on, and I found even more substance in life. I lived through more experiences that has helped me really develop even more of who I am. I have learned that I will always be growing and changing. The work we put into ourselves should never stop. We will never be "fixed". I may have felt like I was at the right place and everything was perfect,but what I was lacking was the understanding that life isn't predictable. It doesn't come with an owners manual of how to overcome things that break. The only way to get through life is to be accepting of change. I was taught a lesson when all slipped away from me. I was taught to really open my eyes and see the world in a more realistic light, not just a rose colored light. I am currently in a place where I am about to have this life that I once thought was so right and perfect, back. Sometimes things do work out. And sometimes when you feel like you are where you are supposed to be, it's because you really are. Listen to yourself. And don't doubt yourself. When something goes wrong, don't try to fix it and figure out what caused it, learn from it and move on. When you accept where you are and how you got there, you'll manifest the abundance and prosperity that you craved in the first place.

Reminiscing

I’ve learned that things change, people change, and it doesn’t mean you forget the past or try to cover it up; it simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn’t mean giving up, it means accepting that some things weren’t meant to be. Direction isn’t always easy to find, and what we think is the right path, can actually just lead us back to where we started, the place of question and doubt. Maybe we missed something, or didn't prepare for our journey. But in order to truly love or achieve something, you must first give it a chance to fail. If afterward it can find a way to survive or prevail, you will then be a part of something stronger than you ever imagined.

Mothers

Today is Mother's Day. What does this day mean to you? Is it an evaluation of the current state as to which your relationship with your mother is in, or is it a celebration of the relationship you endure? Maybe it's a day of remembrance or a day of mere admiration. To me this is a day where I take the time to honor the most influential person in my life. Now my use of the word influential isn't always rose colored. God knows that my relationship with my mother has taken about a million turns and switches throughout my lifetime. However, it is still important to explore, honor, and recognize where we come from. Whether that be a pleasant vision or not. Reality is reality and we can learn and grow, or avoid and coast. Let's face it, our relationships with our mother's are probably up there as being one of the most complex relationships we have. And every mother to child relationship is different. That is what makes them special. Today, I recognize my mother. The woman who is imperfectly beautiful and human. The woman who has shown me things I want to be whether it be by example or simply vicarious. She is also the woman who I have learned what not to do from. She has shown me my tendencies through a mirror of actions. She loves me and knows me better than anyone, and is the person that will never turn her back on me, no matter what. Sometimes I think we take the unconditional aspect of the relationship for granted. So today, Mom, I love you. For everything you are and everything you're not. You are my mom. And today, that is something to celebrate.

Choices

Sometimes life brings us to a point where we must "choose." The concept of decision making, no matter what the circumstance, is extremely dreadful for some of us. Maintaining our mediocre state of being seems completely less terrifying than entering an unknown alternative. We constantly fear that the uncomfortable feelings we get by thinking about reaching into something foreign are accurate assumptions of what our future holds. There is a fine line between the fear of the unknown, and our "gut" instinct telling us to hold back. How do you know if your scared or if what you are considering really isn't for you? Often times, choices really are about revealing ourselves. We make choices based on what is in our heart. It's important to really evaluate your situation logically and emotionally. A list of priorities, goals, and basic necessities should lead us into the right direction. I think the hardest part is truly understanding our emotions and the motives behind them. If we take the time to do this, then maybe the burden of certain decisions that rest on our shoulders, might not feel so heavy.

Sometimes we become overwhelmed and feel run down by the thoughts of our responsibilities. I have come to find that the thoughts themselves are actually worse than the outcomes of our duties and we walk away pleasantly surprised. Nothing is usually as bad as what we stir up in our heads. Let's focus on the efficiency of our tasks so at the end of the day we can look back on a job well done, and pictures with a few less wrinkles.